Ruth

In the Bible study that I am leading at Creekside, we are going through the life of Ruth. She has a heart to serve God by remaining with her mother-in-law.  She is obedient. She has character that few women match. She is not a Jew, yet she has a book in the Bible named after her. She is in the lineage of Jesus.


She obviously did something noble and righteous to earn herself a place in the lineage of Jesus, which is why I chose her life to study. (and it's my middle name)


Anyway...I have been feeling bummed a little because it's wedding season and my friends are getting married. I am no where close to getting married but it is definitely something I desire with my whole heart. Last week as I was preparing for Bible study, I read that Ruth was noble in character and it linked me to this verse:

Proverbs 12:4

A wife of noble character is her husband’s crown, 

but a disgraceful wife is like decay in his bones.


And God revealed this to me: NEWS FLASH! I am not ready to be married! Right now I am not the noble wife, but as I continue to grow in my relationship with Christ, I am in the process of becoming a wife with noble character.


Well then I felt dumb, because I know am not really in a place to be getting married. I am just trying to figure out who I am in Christ, in my job, in my disease, etc. before I will be ready. God used this verse to show me I should chase after Him and not a guy who can't fulfill the things I need like my Heavenly father can. It seems so logical as I write this, but it's something I definitely struggle with.  If I desire a certain kind of man, shouldn't I be becoming the woman that he desires too. Once we are both the people that each other desires and needs, then God will reveal his plan. Until then I will run after my Savior and no one else. God's timing is always perfect and I find peace and rest in that. It is still a struggle, but I am overwhelmingly thankful my life belongs to Him.