The song is "If You Want Me To" by Ginny Owens. It's kind of old (1999) but it's truths are still so real. It talks about how we choose to follow the Lord despite the difficulties of life. We choose to persevere through these things because we know God is going to use them to shape and mold us to be more like Him. His promise is perfect though: it's not going to be easy, but he will walk through it with us.
Each phrase of the song made me think back to where I started with my Diabetes diagnosis. It hasn't been easy. It has sucked sometimes. BUT I know that the Lord has walked me through EVERY step, change, and challenge. It has completely shaped the way I have followed the Lord over the past three years. I have chosen to continue being faithful to God's calling for my life not because of anything I did, but because he chose to die for me. His suffering was way worse than anything I will ever face.
It was such a blessing today, that I think Chris and I might sing/record it together. It'll be cool to share these special truths with my brother!
The pathway is broken and the signs are unclear
And I don't know the reasons why you brought me here.
But just because you love me the way that You do
I'm gonna walk through the valley if you want me to.
Cause I'm not who I was when I took my first step
And I'm clinging to the promise You’re not through with me yet.
So if all of these trials that bring me closer to You
Then I will go through the fire if you want me to.
And it may not be the way I would've chosen
When you lead me through a world that's not my home
But you never said it would be easy
You only said I'd never go alone.
So when the whole world turns against me
And I'm all by myself
And I can't hear you answer my cries for help
I'll remember the suffering that your love put you through
And I will go through the valley if you want me to